So, in case you have been feeling SUPER strange the last few days, I would like to inform you that today was in fact a full moon.
Here is a lovely ritual that you can adapt: http://spaceinbetween.com.au/how-to-create-a-full-moon-healing-elixir/
And here are my top tips for increasing energy and channelling CALM MUMMA:
1. Do not underestimate the power of a few deep breaths. I catch myself so many times during the day about to say something I might regret (like, please tell me again why you would prefer to waste money on smokes and fast food rather than get fit? and ifIhearonemoretantrumIwillthrowmyselfoutofthewindow) or speak in a way I might regret. If I simply stop and take two or three deep breaths, say whatever it is in my head and then proceed with caution, generally I will avoid making a crap situation worse.
Diaphragm breathing has literally held me (and my rectus abdominus) together.
2. Drink all the water. First thing in the morning I drink a warm lemon water, last thing at night I drink a glass of water. During the day I drink about 3lt of water. I am breastfeeding and train daily, I also drink a tonne of coffee, water is the elixir of LIFE.
3. Eat food that makes you feel good. I dont care about GOOD food vs BAD food, in my humble opinion all FOOD (vegetables, fruits, nuts, seeds and grains) is GOOD and the majority of processed food serves its purpose. We all know that eating processed foods doesn't make us feel good. It might taste good (well, the sugars and fillers and fat do) but if you really sit with your body, you will sense the delayed digestion, the bloating and possibly the toxins.

My gift to a birthing woman is empowerment. I truly believe that birth is a normal process that does not require fear or coercement, and that each birth is magic in its own way. 
Having experienced a 'cascade of intervention' and traumatic cesaerean, then a healing home birth (HBAC), followed by a very fast and intense home birth, gives me strength and belief in what women can do. Women are so strong and when our birthing partners align with our vision, we can achieve a birth that is beautiful.
I love women, birth and babies and love when partners are supportive of the birthing mother. I believe I can hold space for a birthing couple or family with a deep respect for midwifery and personal choice.
With a lengthy experience and vast knowledge of anatomy as an exercise scientist, personal trainer, coach and yoga teacher, I can assist women during pregnancy, labour and the post partum period. I believe in affirmations, manifesting your dreams and the power of breath.

It's day five of NO SLEEP in our home. Thanks to an ex husband that wont be named, who got a cough, which has now passed from child to child, all I have heard at night is coughing for the last three weeks.
This wouldn't be so bad, I mean, I can survive hearing coughing...it's just that Reef is feeding like a newborn overnight...and he screams like we're pulling out toenails if I refuse to feed him. And this is compounded by Raine screaming at night because of night terrors/being cold/because she is secretly possessed*
Something about the last week has made this even more unbareable. Raine just cries all the time and has these huge tantrums, River is really struggling with that relationship, Reef is particularly demanding with feeding.
I am trying so hard to be the kind mother. The compassionate, helpful safe space my children can turn to. This is making me train well because I need to get this huge energy out somehow. It is hard to speak truthfully and kindly and role model emotion processing in a way that is age appropriate for the kids.
Most of the time my energy is stretched so thin that I could shatter if the smallest thing doesn't go to plan. There is a confronting place in meditation where the magic isn't happening and I have so many questions, and I'm trying to balance the acceptance of what is, with the dreaming and the manifesting the life I crave.
What have I been doing:
Nadi shodhana (alternate nostril breathing) has helped calm my anxious mind.
Practicing yoga each day and making sure I spend 5-10min diaphragm breathing.
Training five days each week, carefully programmed by my husband to increase my strength and focus on posterior development (I've just bought myself some booty bands for an exciting project), as of this week my focus will be back to building up my muscle ups.
My reading has included:
Parenting for a Peaceful World - which is equal parts eye opening, affirming and devastating. I urge any parent or caregiver to read this if they like more educational texts.
Rise sister Rise - one of the (many) things I took from this book is that my true sisters are waiting and searching for me, just like I am them. And I am able to look at my experiences, emotions and actions without judgement, and I feel like I am evolving each day to my life's calling.
Autumn Eats:
We've been having a hard time preparing enough food for everyone, so as long as I got a big ass coffee, a daily kombucha and a smoothie I am happy. We've been drinking Fire Tonic. Breakfast will be porridge and kitchari through winter so I am looking at more breakfast bars and muffins through this season. Warm salads. Pasta and tofu wraps and Vegie Bar dinner is my jam. I've found a delicious recipe for cauliflower pizza which I will endeavour to post.
Wearing:
I am now an ambassador for the incredible activewear store Movement Mecca #mvmtmecca and all of our CFC tribe can get a little discount (code found in our facebook members page). I'm also crushing on Slinkii and Lorna Jane (their tees and undies are so cute!). 
All my gal pals are invited to a VIP night at Lorna in Eastland on Tuesday May 9th at 5pm, register your interest with me asap.
Dreaming:
I am filming my Mummas porogram to pop online next month!
Because I am having a little winter break in July, I am looking for accomodation in Brisbane from July 4-11th and in Byron from 11th-30th.
There is some HUGE growth on the horizon to both The Mumma Movement and CrossFit Croydon, they say if it doesn't terrify you, then it's not worth doing.
Mumma's and Mumma-to-be's:
Autumn CrossFit Mummas is now fully booked!! 8 weeks of postpartum training come at us!!!
If you are looking for a doula and would like to enquire about my services, I am still available through the ADC as a trainee until July, when I will qualify! Holistic Birth Packages available in Spring.

Here's to the other zombie mummas, and papa bears, the shift workers, the light bringers, anyone who is trying to heal themselves and therefore our world, you are my tribe.


*Ps I do not actually believe Raine is posessed ;)

Right now, I am sneaking some vegan chocolate and sipping a passionfruit kombucha while my kids actually play in their play room. Took a moment from my day to text a girlfiend, and feeling ok now.
Husband is away surfing with his besty and while I think in many ways it's almost easier without a second adult, I miss him and we tend not to eat much. 
The stress in our house had been rising over the past few weeks, for reasons that I cannot pinpoint other than the weather cooling in Melbourne. It always is hard to balance work stress and home stress, because all five of us go to work together.
Anyway last night I read a lovely little bloggy about happiness http://bohoboys.com/letter-mamas-concerned-happiness/ and I have been reading a lovely little book called "Happy Mama" by Amy Taylor-Kabbaz, it all has had me breathing a little more. The goal is not in actual fact those picture perfect instagram moments. The goal for me, and for us as mothers united in Mummahood, is presence.
Taking a deep breath before losing your shit because you have to repeat yourself 65 billion times. Stopping yourself mid-blog to attend to whatever it is that your child desperately needs to show you. Cutting off a million conversations to answer to "mum, mum, muuuuum, mummmmm, mumumumumummaaaaaaaa". Ensuring that you are the constant, the consistent, the BORING parent so that your children can turn to you when they need a cuddle or they feel angry or sad or overwhelmed.
It has shamed me that I am not always these things. It really upsets me when I lose my cool, when I notice myself enforcing seventy five rules within an hour, when I get frustrated because I just want to engage in adult conversation. 
All of that is alright too. I do not expect my children to be perfect all the time, so why do I expect myself to be the perfect mother all the time?
I was always quite proud that I never really suffered from "mummy guilt" as I parented exactly the way I wanted to, have stayed with my kids the majority of the time, and the things I have needed to do (such as education and training) I have managed to do with my children in tow. A girlfriend pointed out that I'm so used to just packing my kids up and going where I need to that it seems like nothing is too hard for me. And I guess I am wondering what the cost of this is. Because I do not feel HAPPY or content the majority of the time. I truly have not felt the need to change something until recently, and my husband has been great in gifting me a morning alone at home when we can spare it. 
Anyway, what I am getting at is that it's not about the choices we make as mothers. It doesn't matter about the birth we had, the way we feed our children, or if we work or stay at home (or do both). The important thing is that we have felt empowered to make those choices and that they align within our hearts to create a life that we are proud to live.
Right now I know that I have felt so passionately about raising my wildlings as an attachment mumma, that I truly desired being a mumma more than anything else in the world, That I have made decisions with love, research and integrity. So I promise myself to breathe more in the face of chaos, noise and being ignored. I promise to love myself anyway, even if I yell or get frustrated but also to notice when I am doing it and perhaps try to diffuse the situation before it reaches crisis point. I promise to be the consistent parent when I can, and to set boundaries that protect both my sanity and my children's needs.

“If a child is failing, it’s not their fault. It’s our job to set realistic, respectful, and meaningful boundaries. We must take into consideration our children’s developmental stage when establishing our boundaries. [Saying] ‘No, I won’t let you do x,y,z…’ suffices for a 15-month-old, but it’s not realistic to expect an elementary school aged child to take no as an answer—we want [those children] to talk back and ask why. We want them to play with the rules and experiment, push boundaries, and see how far they can go. It’s healthy and totally age appropriate! They’ll need those skills in the real world. Critical thinking, navigating social interactions healthily, making their voice heard. It’s annoying as parents to have to give reasons for every step we take, but let’s remember [our children are] practicing for the real world. Let’s empower them, not crush their being because of our own ego. If they’re failing, it’s because we are not giving them clear directions. It’s on us to offer a safe environment to let them thrive. Their job is to explore. Our job is to make sure they’re free to be themselves. This is respect for the child. It’s time to let go of ‘because I said so.’ It will save a lot of frustration and missed goals for sure.” ~ Lea Azevedo

Big love for all mummas xx

Date night. Husband, wife, husband's best mate and three kids, what could go wrong?
remember I was so in shock when I found out many parents don't take their kids out to restaurants or cafes. 
Secretly feeling a little smug that besides being cheeky, my kids usually listen to us, I have literally taken them everywhere with me. The last few months have been testing times, however, and tonight I realized WHY parents leave their kids at home.
Was there conversation? No. Was the meal shared lovingly? Yes. Were we in good company? Definitely. Did something get broken? A few things...a glass and well, just my spirit.
Having children is like playing cards (not that I know how to do that either), you just never know the hand you've been dealt. Each day is so different. Today Reef was such a clingy, frustrated little man and Raine was terrifically dramatic at every opportunity. She literally threw a tantrum because I didn't want her to continue playing with the broken ear of her headband while she NEEDED to keep it in her pocket. She also kept picking up her friend Oscar and topped off the arvo by randomly head butting me in the mouth. Reef screamed at me for ten minutes, inconsolable because he wanted to sit on the bench and I didn't know what "bien" meant. He's now fast asleep, nappy free and I think I'd find it much harder if he wasn't so damn gorgeous.
Today River's attitude is stinkier than ever - it seems to get worse and worse then a day of good before the downward spiral starts again. He hates everything, everything is boring, he cannot think of things to be grateful for and even "there's plenty of better things than the skyyyyyy, mum" when I pointed out how beautiful the pastel sunset was tonight.
I'm finding it hard to squeeze in any reconnection after school with him and I honestly don't know how other parents manage to balance it all? It seems like my kids save all the shitty behaviour for me, and I literally have them 24/7 except for a few hours of work two nights and one morning each week. I feel like my kids always come home worse and I can't even imagine working full time then having to squeeze in parenting before bedtime. Why is motherhood so.damn.hard?!
So much hard. I look like the crazy person for crying into my ginger ninja at vegie bar after my toddler has smashed a glass on the floor and thrown a dirty mi goreng stained napkin at another family. Riv sat there giving the finger to everyone and Raine was running around like a wildling.
I was supposed to study today and now it's 8.30pm and I have to prepare for a new day of work and school. GAH! I haven't even seen my husband today except for the drive to the city (me passing books to the kids and him opening and closing Reefs window on command - super fun stuff) and the drive home which was filled with serious conversations about why we can't go out to dinner if that behaviour continues and negotiations on how many books we will read the kids before bed. 
The light side of this whole situation is that I was experiencing writers block...and now the word flow through me.
Have a good night Mummas (or a good long sip of something alcoholic)

Wait...I am a mother and own a business hahahaha there is NO SUCH THING AS EASY.
Yesterday I had the pleasure of popping in to my friends new shop which is EXACTLY how I would like my future home to look (@loveiluka) and among other things we discussed the trials of parenthood and relationships. When River was little I had few friends with children the same age and every other mother I knew said "Just wait" and "You this THIS is hard"...so I turned to blogging whilst I was up all night. I was talking to another mother at playgroup who had a perfect child the first time, sleeping through the night and who's second child behaves like all three of mine and detests sleeping. It's all exactly as it should be.
I am now at the cusp, I am a school mum and the mother of a toddler, as well as parenting my middle child. My eldest two may as well be teenagers they are so damn moody.
Where do I fit anymore...I'm still up breastfeeding allllllllllllll night long yet my children can mostly entertain themselves and allow a few moments of peace in the chaos, which is then mainly filled with cleaning up the crap they just pulled out or doing work.
It's overwhelming often and it has become harder to have a social life. Our business is past the critical first three years and yet there are new challenges to face each week, month and even day. My days are often still filled with damage control, of the kids or the gym. I'm studying too (though not at university, so I don't think of it as overly difficult).
So Sunday morning rolls around and I find myself wanting to stay close to my family, for play and laughter and peace, lots of yoga (which Eric is doing on the deck now as I type), I couldn't face driving anywhere and need to plan our week ahead, though the second I try I know I will be interrupted. 
Basically if you are a mother, you need to find yourself a tribe. Probably a tribe of other women with similar values to you and that have children. Because even if you can never, ever catch up, trust me they understand the trials and simple pleasures of parenthood. 
To all of the women that are about to embark on the selfless and all consuming journey of mumma hood, feel free to email me, to connect with me. Take the time to hire a fantastic photographer and capture all the beautiful moments of your life as a couple, during pregnancy, through birth and early postpartum days. My recommendation is @sigridpetersenphotography if you are in Melbs. And if you would like to be a part of The Mumma Movement reach on out <3
Stay tuned today for my blog on the Birth of Baby Z xxx

Alright, the year has gotten away from me as time often does when you are raising little people.
Snapshot of my life right now - my children are still 5, 3 and not yet 2years old. Eric and myself have been married for 1year and 1month and have gone on approximately three dates in that time.
River started prep or founders last month which has meant I've spent far less time with him but I think he will mellow out with some routine. His dad has taken him away for the weekend for the first time...I'm pretty devastated. It must be nice to be a part time dad, there's like no responsibility and your children just adore you. Here's to all the separated Mummas....it's more often than not a thankless job. And giant kudos to the fathers raising children like their own, or even just raising their own children, these little people will be better because of you.
Raine is wild, I've felt really disconnected from her in our day to day living...she needs one on one time with me and with Eric and we can't always indulge her needs. I've certainly found age 3-5years the most challenging, and I knew I would because as an adult I still find my own emotions hard to regulate! Raine is also such a sweet and intelligent little girl so we are trying hard to focus on this. I'm glad she too is a little mermaid and would spend all her time by the seaside, she loves cleaning and helping with tasks. It would be nice if her night terrors and screaming would stop so we could potentially get a few hours sleep a night...
Reef is a beautiful little boy. At 22months old he seems far younger than his brother and sister did. He's talking in single syllables and mostly being very sweet, but he can certainly hold his own and is very determined just like we all are...so there is often conflict, especially between Raine and Reef. He is irrational often, like each of us are and STILL wakes every few hours during the night screaming the house down if I refuse to feed him.
I am certainly struggling the most with lack of sleep. On a good night I will get four hours of uninterrupted sleep. On a bad night, we're up every hour. Usually it's every two or three hours between 10pm-4.30am.
Three mornings each week we get up at 4.30am to coach the 6am WOD and work till 7.15/45pm. Over the next four weeks we will be working until 8.15/30pm and I'm a little nervous.
The CrossFit Croydon community is growing still and we have such a wonderful group of humans working out together, I feel very blessed to coach everyone and help them achieve their goals. I am LOVING teaching yoga at the box, guiding my yogis through each class has a positive impact that makes my heart warm.
My training has taken a spot in the priorities list ;) and I've found myself achieving more than I believed possible this year, from my 1rms increasing, to being able to sustain a heavy load through a workout, to not crying through thrusters and wall balls, most importantly I nailed my first muscle ups which has been on my goals list for about five years! I still have so much work to do...I'm building my posterior chain, rebuilding my abdominal muscle structure, balancing flexibility with strength, then obviously working on heavier lifts, better technique, functionality in gymnastics movements, committing to running and rowing...the list goes on.
We have just started saving towards buying a home. My dream was to own a home before I'm 30 but I'm surprisingly alright with that taking a little longer. It will happen because we have put in so much ground work. No matter how hard things seem now, I've realized how far we have come and I am so glad that I get to follow my passion each and every day, and actually get paid to do it.
Saturday - up at 6am, Reef JUST settling after screaming for a good half hour, up again at 6.30am and back in Raine's bed due to her screaming. Everyone up at 6.50am and in the car at 7.11am. Drop little kids to my grandparents and start coaching at 8am. Nick picks Riv up (yes there were tears). Start running everyone through the Open WOD 17.3 at 9am, finish at 12. Staff meeting. Pick up kids, groceries. 2.30pm home finally!! Both kids fast asleep...cleaning and preparing the house. Looking forward to a day off tomorrow, we'll be going hiking in the morning and doing lots of connecting with the kids. 
Eric is going to sneak in a garage WOD today after totally crushing 17.3 and I might do some booty building and lots of yoga. Tomorrow I'll be skipping for my fasted cardio pre-breakfast and considering we have Dumbbells in the boot I guess Eric plans on doing another garage WOD ;)
This is the start of me being more committed to writing on my computer...not just my home journals. I know I say this all the time but life is tricky baby, and I'm balancing being an entrepreneur with spending less time behind a screen!
Big love x

Here are some ways to create a simple full moon ritual as a family:

We lay a picnic blanket out with our Ganesh and each chose a crystal to be charged by the moon

"Ganesh is one of the best known and loved deities in the Hindu pantheon of gods, and indeed is the most recognized of the Hindu gods outside of India.  
Ganesh (also spelled Ganesa or Ganesha and known as Ganapati, Vinayaka and Pillaiyar) is the Lord of Good Fortune who provides prosperity, fortune and success.  He is the Lord of Beginnings and the Remover of Obstacles of both material and spiritual kinds.  Interestingly, he also places obstacles in the path of those who need to be checked."
We had gold "fairy dust" to place on each other's forehead saying “You are anointed/blessed with….,” and for each person we say something different, such as: joy, love, health, happiness…
We had a jar filled with water. We passed it around shaking it up and down, infusing it with what we want to bring into our lives next. The jar is then placed right in the moonlight and ready the next morning, for drinking our wishes and manifestations, blessed by the moon.

We sang many, many, many OMs and give lots of silly and sincere thanks. We blew out the candle.
Then we called it a night. Eric put the kids to sleep while I took Marli for a skate and swim at the beach.

Next time we will add in:
Some string to wind around our wrists, connecting us together. Then each of us can speak of something we want to let go of or our fears, whatever. As we speak, we cut them free and throw the string in the fire (you can always just throw it in the bin if you don’t have a fire)

Right now Eric is putting Reef to sleep. usually we just pop him in the Tula and transfer him to bed...right now hes been screaming for a good five minutes. He's been feeding as often and as vigorously as a newborn...he's 18months old ffs!! It is really hard to explain the burn out that comes with breastfeeding....and I havent had a single day not feeding someone for 5.5years. I tandem fed River and Raine, then Raine and Reef, I am really looking forward to having my body to myself again one day.
I wanted to quickly update my blog, to check in with anyone who might be interested, to provide food for thought.
My life right now in December 2016 looks a little like this:
Eric and I have been married now for 11months. River is five, Raine is three, Reef is about 1.5years old.
We own and operate CrossFit Croydon, it is coming up to our third birthday. I am studying to become a doula and have recently supported my girlfriend in her VBAC (which was one of the BEST experiences of my life!). I am personal training about six clients each week and I am loving their progress. We live in Frankston/Seaford and work in Croydon so our days look like this:
Monday/Wednesday
4.30am yoga and ready for the day, lemon water
5.15am leave
6am coach
7am train
8am coffee is life
9am coach
10am Summer Mumma program
eat/admin/child wrangle
12pm coach
1pm home to the beach or stay local at the pool if its hot
4pm train/admin
5pm or 6pm PTs
5.30pm coach
6.30pm teach yoga (Eric does yoga or has PTs)
On Monday E's dad takes kids to park for a picnic dinner and on wednesdays my grandparents look after the little two for dinner
Fridays now involve me working solo 6am-11.30pm (this week I am back-to-back)
then E would normally work solo at night. This week I have a PT and will do my training in the pm.
On Tuesdays & Thursdays currently Eric trains/coaches/programs and I stay home with the kids. My work consists of writing Christmas cards, programming, blogging, business marketing, enquiries and follow ups. These are also the only days I have to clean the house. We do food preparation and LOTS of washing! In the lead up to Christmas I also have some extra PT sessions on these days.
Our lifestyle looks pretty cruisey, and sometimes its the absolute BEST day off or at work, but full time parenting combined with a full time (+) career has its challenges. We have finally reached our goal of a consistent 100+ athletes at our gym, however we are always looking for ways to keep growing and definitely maintain our current athletes (everyone at our box becomes like family). I find that because we have <6hrs of sleep each night we must use food as therapy and make sure our stress levels (internally and externally) stay balanced.
This is the first year in the last six where I have the financial ability to buy our kids gifts and some for our family and friends, it is a really awesome feeling ;D

It was a full moon yesterday and I am so so deeply in tune with Gaia and the lunar cycle. I was emotional but I have also been feeling so energised, motivated, inspired and on the right path.
I am looking forward to the rest of this week and welcoming a new year!

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Pretty much my whole life I wanted to be a mumma. I always desired a career but I REALLY wanted to be a mum. This passion led me to stay in probably a few too many not-right-for-me relationships because I wanted to build my own family. Fast forward to 2011, I was 23 and about to have my first baby. I was different from almost every mother I knew. I researched everything about cloth nappies, breastfeeding, natural birth, attachment parenting, baby wearing, extended rear facing car seats and baby led weaning...my family thought I was nutty but I knew exactly the type of mother that I wanted to be.
The dark periods passed and I have raised three healthy and intelligent (albeit extremely loud) children. I am "lucky" that I dont have to put my children into day care, that I have raised them exactly how I intended and that we do not watch television still, though I have gotten to the stage where I feel extremely burnt out.
Since Wednesday the ugly dread has crept back into my life, the dread that gives me an irrational fear that every single thing will go wrong. That I am not good enough, that I do not deserve success and savings and a home. That I have made poor decisions leading me to a dead end and that there is no way out of my situation.
Rational Self knows that this will pass, that the foggy sleepless teething nights will end, that a cup of coffee or a quick skate with the kids or another adult acknowledging me will make me smile. I do know that there are far more great things in my life than there are mediocre or devastating or bad.
These are my thoughts on pulling myself out of the hole of despair:
Fresh Air - The last thing I felt like doing this morning was getting out of bed, or seeing anyone, or getting dressed. But we effectively knocked over several cans with one stone, we walked the dog, the children seem less loud outdoors,, they burnt energy, we got coffee and a little exercise, we saw some of our favourite humans and the mood started to lift.
ribe - I didnt feel stable enough to spend the day alone, I really didnt want to see anyone (when I am down in the dumps I feel really ugly and overweight and want to hide), but thankfully my best mate had some spare time to hang out and not talk about anything, He helped me manage the lunch phase and entertained my kids in the bath so I could clean up. At the same time I reached out to my girlfriends and just the support of a safe space to admit I am not superwoman was enough to lift my energy. E was also pretty epic today, he is pretty damn burnt out too and still managed to pick me up (literally)
Nutrition - sometimes this feeling makes me unable to eat, sometimes I want to eat everything I can think of! Balancing my blood sugar and avoiding the hangries was pretty important today. In our house we all get pretty shitty when we dont eat every few hours. Breakfast was vegan cheesymite scrolls (homemade), coffee and a smoothie, lunch was ginger and pumpkin soup with chia seeds and a slice of spelt bread, E treated me to Vegie Bar dinner, of salad and mi goreng and a cheeky few beverages. I would not recommend having coffee or alcohol but today I felt like it and I'm going to bed happier than I woke.
Exercise - we all know that exercise makes you feel good, and while it might be difficult getting the motivation to begin, it is always worth it. So I did a little home workout and am excited for some HIIT at 7am tomorrow. It is important to do something that you LOVE whether it is running, or dancing, lifting weights or yoga...just move to make yourself feel good.
Plan - giving myself something to look forward to and a way to best approach my days is really helpful. If I am organised about which classes I am running, when I am training, when the kids have activities and which items on the to do list can be achieved, I feel like I can keep moving. 
Be kind - I havent been speaking very nicely to myself, and I have been yelling at my family. This makes me feel like shit. So when we skated today we also picked up rubbish. And when we went out I tried to give everyone I saw a silent compliment. Before bed I will do a little meditation just for myself and I have set an affirmation and mantra for Monday:

"I am love and calm. I am worthy and abundant. I am safe space for those I love. I choose openness and light"

I hope this helps you too xx